Posted: December 11, 2008 at 3:03 pm

So it’s December 11th, 1:22pm. The last bits of our ~2 inch snowfall yesterday are melting from the rooftop outside my window. Chilly, but I like it that way.

I’ve been through probably the most disorienting sleep schedule you could ask for over the past week (wake times of 2pm, 5pm, 9pm, 2am, 3am, 5am, 6am, 7am, and 9am since school let out - and definitely not in that order). If you count it out - that’s 9 days - exactly the time since class officially ended for us. Between shuttling Stephanie around while her car is in the shop, forcing myself to give Warhammer a 3rd, 4th, and 5th chance, and watching a lot of “The Morning Joe” it’s just been a lot of sleep. 9 days.

I’m already itching to get back to work.

I think my personality thrives on challenege, work, accomplishment, stress, and ultimately success. I’m not sure many fields could interest and challenge me as much as this one does, nor in the same way. I’m sure business administration in a paper company could be challenging and stressful (in that “dealing with dimwits” way that The Office so hilariously portrays) - but that isn’t fulfilling. I spent the morning looking at incomes in the industry and comparative cost of living in prospective cities. Thanks to the internet and talking to people in the lab I know I’m looking at a decent cash flow to work out on the west coast. Compare this to the median M.B.A. income from Texas A&M (a paltry 180k). My immediate reaction was “good god I am in the wrong major” until I realized what that job entails.

While I enjoy leading people (I always seem to take control during group projects even when I try not to) and I never seem to incur infighting(guess that means I’m good at it), not being able to at least glance at doing creative and bleeding edge work seems soulless. I emphasize bleeding edge because that’s where I want to be - and I won’t accept any less. Management or production(no preference at the moment) at a company like Dreamworks, Pixar, EA, Valve, Blur, Blizzard, Google, Microsoft, etc. really appeals to me. Management at Goldman Sachs and Bob’s Renderfarm have about the same appeal (none). It’s the difference between providers and innovators. I want to be where the action is. Guess that entails taking a 110k paycut for the time being.

I really truely wish I could be up at the lab right now seeing what people are working on and chatting, learning, and generally being creative with them. It’s amazing to see what happens when you put a couple labbers together for an hour. 9 days out and I already want to go back to school. I can only imagine what would happen if I was working at a top tier company. I’d probably spend my vacations back up at the office seeing what the other productions are up to.

Not sure if they would let me do that.

One Response to “Thrive”

  1. chris duffel Says:

    dude. tell me about it. bleeding edge all the way. My deal is that I just dont know yet what im cutting through.

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